Haven't really posted anything in a long time, my mundane job is destroying my will to do anything in the miniscule amount of free time i get within a day. I feel like a grain of sand on a beach currently, nothing changes, the ocean moves me back and forth every so often but i don't recieve any satisfaction in knowing that fact. I feel incapable of trying to make art a thing whilst having to work a job, all that passion gets drip drained away and absorbed into something that you only do to gain income. Having money isn't really bringing me any sense of purpose either, its value is similar to that of dirt, i can buy any menial belongings to my